Week 8

breaking up with him was the biggest mmistake of my life. i miss him so much.




i have dropped my phone in the toilet 3 times and always told everyone i'd dropped it in the sink while washing dishes.





I'm terrified that he doesn't love me. I'm more terrified that he does and is too afraid to do anything about it.






more than anything I want to talk to him, not because I had a huge crush on him. But he knew how to make me happy, he made me excited to learn because I taught him what I was suppose to be learning. How did I lose such a great friend? I can't just message him. It'd be too awkward now.



we were playing "truth" at school, they asked "whose looked at porn in the last month?" and i didn't raise my hand. it was a lie.






Sadly, I feel the most alone whenever I am around my family.




again she makes me feel stupid. today was my dads company christmas party and i decided not to go. then she calls me to tall me what i missed out on and how so many cute boys my age where there. i feel alone enough as it is so why does she have to hurt me time and time again making me regret the things i did and didn't do. it stabs me in the heart every time. why do you make it so hard for me to love you mom? i cry as i write this because im lonely on the inside and the guy that truely loves me will never understand me. i fell like taking my heart and ripping it out of my chest so i no longer feel emotions. i just want to runaway to a differnt country and leave all my troubles here...






there is a friend who makes me want to kill myself. It's not her fault, nor does it really mean that she's that significant in my life. but she reminds of all of the people who I'm going to disappoint in the future and will never make it up to them by continuing to exist. I just can't stand myself when we can't get along.








he's the man of my dreams. i told him we just made out. i cannot tell him that i gave another man oral sex. my heart breaks everyday from keeping this secret from him. we tell eachother everything. i know we're going to end up together. but what am i to do with this burden of guilt i have carried for almost a year now. i love you kdj.








I'm still too scared to admit to myself that I'll never have this man. It doesn't matter if I pried myself out of his life, he never would have fully accepted me anyway. I'm just a memory that is nine months too old.... two weeks of incredible conversation. But I can't fool myself into thinking he's going to try to popmup. So I have to say it over and over.... He will never be mine, so move on... forget him.


somedays i want to choke my bar customers, but they would never know, i always put on a happy face.






get the fuck over and dont be such an asshole. i haven't even met you and im sure as hell not going to have sex with you anytime soon if not at all even. stop being such a goddamn boy!






the scientist - coldplay, wild horses - natasha beddingfield, and your call - secondhand serenade, three songs that describe my life PERFECTLY.








I miscarried my daughter at 8 weeks when I was 15. I'm now 19. I knew it would have been a girl. Sometimes I think I manifestied

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